Rise! let us go!

Sometimes you have to humble yourself and just admit you were wrong. Apologize and ask for forgiveness. then move on.... I have to do this frequently.

One of my faults is dwelling on the wrong thing I've done for too long. I feel so terrible about the mistake I made, I can't believe I did it, and I cant stop beating myself up over what I did wrong.
(Matthew 26:46 helped me. Its basically Jesus letting the disciples know, look guys, I know you did wrong. You are sorry. you feel like the lowest of low right now. you fell asleep when I needed you the most. (they did it like 3 times.) but you are forgiven. okay get up and go. time for the next thing. Its over.
I just don't do that part. I dont look ahead and move on, I keep looking over my shoulder at my mistakes and wrongs and dwelling on them. punishing myself even though it is past and over and I was forgiven. I thought I was doing the right thing by thinking so much about what I did wrong. Then I realized, I don't think the Lord wants me doing that. He want;s me to learn from it. To not do it again. To be repentant. To move on to the next thing. Because its done. I can't go back and change what happened.
All I can do is, humble myself, admit I was wrong, apologize, ask forgiveness, and then "rise, let us go" when Jesus says to.



I'm trying Lord, I know it takes kinda a long time with me, but day by day I am learning more and more. your mercies are new. You never get tired of me. You forgive every time. you love always and unconditionally. You are there to help me up. You are there to show me new things through your words, your creation and beauty, your children here on earth. And though I am a slow learner, and you probably shake your head at the things I do.((its okay God, you can just tweet, "omg guys, did you just see what @jessclark88 did. smh #whenissheevergonnalearn #thethingsidealwith") I pray you see that I'm trying to learn this one and I'm doing better. Everyday I know I'm getting closer to the girl you want me to be. Everyday I'm trying harder. Thank you for not giving up on me. Thank you for loving me and being so patient. Thankyou for showing me who you want me to be and helping me get there.

Love, Jess