my sisters are all so amazing.
Grace, our baby sister. She's 9 or 45. Its hard to tell. Grace is my little jokester (she doesn't mean to always make people laugh. She is serious. Not joking. But, we are always laughing anyway.) She is the one sister with the freckles. Shes always dancing and running and flipping around. She doesn't like sitting still. She's completely serious 90% of the time. She is the youngest. She doesn't want to be the youngest. Its a "hard knock life" according to her. Something we hear on a regular basis, "Yall don't know what its like being the youngest!".
She thinks she is always misunderstood. She get mad easily. She doesn't care about clothes. As long as its comfortable. She cries when she hears sad music. She loves singing sad songs and she has an incredible voice. But she doesn't like to sing for anybody. She loves Johnny Cash.She loves playing his songs on the guitar and singing them. She loves old musicals and black and white movies. She gets embarrassed easily. She gets annoyed easily. She talks about her feelings all the time. She is afraid of the Ocean. She likes those nasty green smoothies my dad makes. Instead of juice in her sippie cup she would have a thick green smelly smoothie. She asks every question there is. She loves pink. She loves Ben. She loves bestfriends. She wouldn't play with boys until last year. She doesn't like being the center of attention. She has always seemed more like a little adult than a baby. I love everything about her.
Grace will be starting her own blog this Summer. Be looking for it.
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Rise! let us go!
Sometimes you have to humble yourself and just admit you were wrong. Apologize and ask for forgiveness. then move on.... I have to do this frequently.
One of my faults is dwelling on the wrong thing I've done for too long. I feel so terrible about the mistake I made, I can't believe I did it, and I cant stop beating myself up over what I did wrong.
(Matthew 26:46 helped me. Its basically Jesus letting the disciples know, look guys, I know you did wrong. You are sorry. you feel like the lowest of low right now. you fell asleep when I needed you the most. (they did it like 3 times.) but you are forgiven. okay get up and go. time for the next thing. Its over.
I just don't do that part. I dont look ahead and move on, I keep looking over my shoulder at my mistakes and wrongs and dwelling on them. punishing myself even though it is past and over and I was forgiven. I thought I was doing the right thing by thinking so much about what I did wrong. Then I realized, I don't think the Lord wants me doing that. He want;s me to learn from it. To not do it again. To be repentant. To move on to the next thing. Because its done. I can't go back and change what happened.
All I can do is, humble myself, admit I was wrong, apologize, ask forgiveness, and then "rise, let us go" when Jesus says to.
I'm trying Lord, I know it takes kinda a long time with me, but day by day I am learning more and more. your mercies are new. You never get tired of me. You forgive every time. you love always and unconditionally. You are there to help me up. You are there to show me new things through your words, your creation and beauty, your children here on earth. And though I am a slow learner, and you probably shake your head at the things I do.((its okay God, you can just tweet, "omg guys, did you just see what @jessclark88 did. smh #whenissheevergonnalearn #thethingsidealwith") I pray you see that I'm trying to learn this one and I'm doing better. Everyday I know I'm getting closer to the girl you want me to be. Everyday I'm trying harder. Thank you for not giving up on me. Thank you for loving me and being so patient. Thankyou for showing me who you want me to be and helping me get there.
Love, Jess
One of my faults is dwelling on the wrong thing I've done for too long. I feel so terrible about the mistake I made, I can't believe I did it, and I cant stop beating myself up over what I did wrong.
(Matthew 26:46 helped me. Its basically Jesus letting the disciples know, look guys, I know you did wrong. You are sorry. you feel like the lowest of low right now. you fell asleep when I needed you the most. (they did it like 3 times.) but you are forgiven. okay get up and go. time for the next thing. Its over.
I just don't do that part. I dont look ahead and move on, I keep looking over my shoulder at my mistakes and wrongs and dwelling on them. punishing myself even though it is past and over and I was forgiven. I thought I was doing the right thing by thinking so much about what I did wrong. Then I realized, I don't think the Lord wants me doing that. He want;s me to learn from it. To not do it again. To be repentant. To move on to the next thing. Because its done. I can't go back and change what happened.
All I can do is, humble myself, admit I was wrong, apologize, ask forgiveness, and then "rise, let us go" when Jesus says to.
I'm trying Lord, I know it takes kinda a long time with me, but day by day I am learning more and more. your mercies are new. You never get tired of me. You forgive every time. you love always and unconditionally. You are there to help me up. You are there to show me new things through your words, your creation and beauty, your children here on earth. And though I am a slow learner, and you probably shake your head at the things I do.((its okay God, you can just tweet, "omg guys, did you just see what @jessclark88 did. smh #whenissheevergonnalearn #thethingsidealwith") I pray you see that I'm trying to learn this one and I'm doing better. Everyday I know I'm getting closer to the girl you want me to be. Everyday I'm trying harder. Thank you for not giving up on me. Thank you for loving me and being so patient. Thankyou for showing me who you want me to be and helping me get there.
Love, Jess
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